Obligatory First Post

If you’re anything like me, you’ve spent most of your non-working, waking hours in a state of near constant panic. Does the joke you made in your Statement of Purpose make you seem crass? Did you accidentally forget to change the name of the school on your writing sample cover page? Did a hostile mail carrier toss your packet into the shredder instead of sending it off to Michigan?

Now that all (14!) applications have gone out and I can no longer afford to participate in any activities one might consider fun (or, you know, eat perishable food) I’m left with some free time and an anxiety so profound and noticeable that strangers have started stopping me on the street, asking if I am okay.

Instead of compulsively checking my application statuses, instead of wavering between delusions of grandeur and unworthiness (in the former, I imagine an admissions committee accepting me on the spot before even reading the other applications. In the latter, I believe that the committee will contact me immediately, by phone, in order to deny me admission and berate me for wasting their time.) Instead of doing all of these things, I’ve decided to use my anxiety for good. I will start so many projects that I literally won’t even have time to consider what it would cost to take a U-Haul from Illinois to Oregon. Or whether or not my long-term relationship can withstand another return to long-distance. Or what in the hell people even do with themselves once their dreams have been crushed on such a large scale (I imagine they start attending local fish fry events and getting in fights with cashiers.)

So, I’ll blog. I’ll blog about the waiting process and about the projects I’ve embarked upon in order to avoid full-blown, soul-crushing panic.

My Current Projects:

-Learn German (for this, I am using a FREE application called Duolingo which is pretty cool. And free.)
-Read One Short Story a Day
-Re-learn Grammar
-Learn How To Write Book Reviews
-Write Book Reviews
-Diversify My Reading Habits
-Submit Stories
-Netflix

My ulterior motive is to have a body of online work that I can use to try to jumpstart some sort of freelance career. Is this how you do that? Does anyone know?

I’ll be updating a Twitter account (@mfwaiting) where I will try to post distractions, literary news, and general observations about the waiting/writing process.  I hope at least one person who isn’t my Mom will find this amusing, or helpful, or worthwhile.

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12 thoughts on “Obligatory First Post

  1. This is great…good luck waiting to hear back. My MFA experience was the best of my life so I’m envious of anyone on the other end of the adventure. Excited to hear how it plays out!

  2. I’m in the exact same place, waiting to hear back from MFA programs, though I only applied to 3, not 14. That’s seriously impressive.

    “Instead of compulsively checking my application statuses, instead of wavering between delusions of grandeur and unworthiness (in the former, I imagine an admissions committee accepting me on the spot before even reading the other applications. In the latter, I believe that the committee will contact me immediately, by phone, in order to deny me admission and berate me for wasting their time.)”– so glad to know I’m not the only one with these exact thoughts!

    Love your blog, can’t wait to spend my time waiting reading about your waiting 🙂

  3. Okay, I think I saw myself in that last sentence:-) If it was up to me, which unfortunately it is not, I would have you accepted to all 14 immediately and you would have them fighting over you and your unbelievable ability to express yourself so eloquently. I would make it so the distance was non-existent between you and Mr. long-term and then I would solve world peace:-) I also need to learn how to make the smiley face without using colon/dash/parenthesis.

  4. Yep, in the same boat. This waiting thing is nerve-wracking. I already have two rejections. Pretty much freaking out every morning while opening my mail and email.

  5. Same boat here! Applied to six, been rejected from three so far. Yikes.

    Just want to say that I laughed, or maybe cackled–okay, cackled–at this part: “Or what in the hell people even do with themselves once their dreams have been crushed on such a large scale (I imagine they start attending local fish fry events and getting in fights with cashiers.)”

    Keep writing. Stay away from cashiers. Mostly the first part.

  6. FOURTEEN applications?! How long did it take you to complete all of that. Shoot.

    Well, on another note, I like your style and I think it’ll be fun to keep tabs on what’s happening… even though I don’t know you or anything. Seems like we’re in a similar place in life. =)

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